Ya girl has been strugglin’. Don’t know if it’s accutane meds or mental health or what but I am SO tired and my body is just constantly knocking out and sleeping a LOT and having a hard time to get up. But I’m here - I’m so sorry for my lack of content and just being online. Also had to deal with some annoying tech problems the last week but I THINK I got it all fixed :D
Still trying to decide on glasses 😅🤣 But have another box coming for potential ones I like.
Loving the cold weather we’ve been having here in south jersey, love the fall. Hoping this sleepiness wears off and I can manage to get more things done for yall.
COD BO6 is coming out soon so ima be diving INTO that, I have a huge box of dresses to try on and you’ll get some pics from them 👀
I also have all my old Fanhouse content that I never posted here I need to rerelease for yall 🥹 I hope yall have been well 🩵🩵🩵
Eyes are starting to get really dry from this accutane, so I’m looking for new glasses (mine are 10 yrs old and not the right prescription)
Any of these catch y’all’s fancy? 🤔 not quite sure what look I want to go for heh
Also should be editing my month review of accutane thus far to share with yall soon 🩵 just feel super vulnerable showing it 😵💫 and nervous for my first check in this Monday :o
Today is officially day 10 on Accutane. Nothing has changed visibly for me with my skin, but man does it feel oily but sticky. I’m trying to keep record of everything I experience and hoping to wrap it into a single video to upload once this whole process is done.
Is there anything in particular that you’d be curious of for my experience?
For those that don’t know, accutane is an intensive (I had to take 5 pregnancy tests prior to getting the medication prescribed) acne “cure”. I know in my first photo, my skin doesn’t look bad at all - it’s the summer glow I’m lucky to get when i lay out in the sun, mixed with spirnalactone medication (50mg). I have had acne and breakouts all over my chest, back, arms, and face for over 20 years and it’s a HUGE reason for my lack of confidence and so my Dermotologist suggested this approach since previous medications and things didn’t help my skin or make a difference.
I know my skin in the current state of starting this process wasn’t bad at all. But I also know the sun time was a huge factor to why it was so much better than it’s ever been before. Plus there always filters I use to smooth things out 😅
Video I’m recording is fully raw, me with my hair as it is in the first pic, just showing my skin as best as I can on camera and explaining the process and experience. Hoping I have confidence and comfort enough to fully post it. But maybe I’ll share those clips on here, would yall be interested to see them? Making a wall for 🧏♀️ Skin Journey 🧏♀️
🍑🤭 I was just jammin' out to some music and having fun for this set, it felt so nice and I captured a lil dance moment while taking some pics for the peachy set 🥵 It's only a lil 7 seconds, but this isn't something I normally feel good enough to share 🫦
There's more sets on my page with this cute little blue dress if you'd like to see more🥰🥵 #lightbluedress #summerdress #cute #sexy #tease #dance #lildancydance #booty #cheekytease
How about a little 🥵 peach pick me up to energize ya' through the week 🍑 🫦Many of ya' love some peachy sets I've posted in the past, and as I feel more confident, I'm feeling more comfortable to share a little more with 'ya - at my own pace of course. 🤭
There's more sets on my page with this cute little blue dress if you'd like to see more🥰🥵
#lightbluedress #summerdress #cute #sexy #peachy #booty #ass #cheeky #tease
🍒 Some playful pics in my #lightbluedress that I felt confident and fun in 😍 Definitely need to get some more fun summer dresses 'cause I feel like a princess in them. Here's some fun pics that feature the favorite 🍒 cleavage & some soft looks 🫦
There's more sets from this cute lil shoot with the little blue dress on my page 🥵
#lightbluedress #summerdress #cute #sexy #cleavage #cherries #dress #sets
🥹 I cannot thank yall enough for the love of the recent sets with the cute little blue dress. Honestly love that dress and felt so good for the first time taking those photos, and it’s so nice yall like them too 🥰
🍒 set will be dropping Saturday
🍑 will drop next week
🎥🍑 vid will drop sept 1st (it’s only 7 secs so pls don’t expect a whole lot but it was fun to do) 🩵🩵
👣 It's HERE!! 👣 It's been requested quite a bit, so I finally took a couple of fun photos for those who enjoy 👣 pics. There's still a few more sets from this lil photoshoot with the #cute #lightbluedress #summerdress #foot #feetpics #legs #sets
This is my first ever experiment with any sort of photos displaying my dogs 😅 if there’s any tips or things that you really liked about these, let me know cause I feel very out of my element since I personally don’t like my own feet >.<
Hoping this one posts properly this time :O Apologies if ya'll saw it and then it disappeared - I reuploaded from the vault so it SHOULD be the same <3
Mornin' cuties 🫦 I got a little spicy 🥵 and was feelin' myself with a lil soft tease 🤭 It felt so nice to feel confident/comfortable enough to get a little more expressive and experiment with angles a lil bit, and it's so hot outside some ice cream is needed 😏
There'll be some more sets on my page with this cute little blue dress if you'd like to see more 🥰 #lightbluedress #summerdress #tease #angles #icecream
I was finally ✨ feeling myself ✨ for the first time. This dress is so cute and I had fun taking these photos 🥰Here's a couple of bundles with about 10 pics each showing some fun and cute poses for ya'll🥰
I'll be releasing some 🥵 extra bundles over the next few days (with a lil' bit of everything 👀🍒🍑👣 and little 7 sec tease dancing 🍑 video) so keep your eyes peeled 👀
#lightbluedress #summerdress #cute #sexy
🤭 I was really feeling it for the first time taking photos for my next set (I know, it's been forever) that I have so many pictures :O May be doing a couple different posts this weekend with different bundles, so don't be alarmed 👀
Here's a lil sneak peek of the dress :D
I’m definitely not the typical “creator”. Instead I share all my shit and suck at managing my time. Working on it 😅 Part of me wants to ask “what fun content would you like to see” but another part of me wants to do what I’m comfy with and makes me happy (and I know damn well a lot of you are going to ask for tits and ass content - which you’ll only get if I ever feel like it, not per request). That being said, aside from typical “sets” and me lookin’ cute, what would be some things that would be cool to see regularly? 🥰
Life’s been a little wild, but I’m starting to get back into a routine to better create and be present online. I will be starting accutane - do I vulnerably vlog my process and everything with it? 🤔
Hope you have an amazing week this week 🥰 Need to update and post more for you guys! Hoping to have a new set of photos out soon (within the next month!) 🩵
STREAMS ALL THIS WEEEEEEK! Excited to get back into it 🥰
Back home for the next two weeks 🫠 Ya’ girl is a mess and all over - MY BAD. I’ve been SO bad with posting anywhere or anything. Little update… talked with a doctor upstate and in the next few months I’ll be getting another IUD & starting an intensive acne regiment to try and “cure” it (aka accutane) so it’ll be an interesting roller coaster. I will have to keep going up for check ins each month. I’ve been going back and forth on this and discussing with loved ones on what’s best and ya girl is done with not doing what I wanna do for me. SO WE DOING IT.
The days have felt a blur. Currently back upstate working BUT streams have returned and it feels so good to be back. Can’t wait to finish this job so I can really dive back into streaming 🥰
Been upstate working a bit, have a bunch more to still do. Finn hasn’t been loving a new place and making things a bit difficult, as he seems to only use the bathroom at dog parks while here 🙄. Hoping to finish out one of the big projects, or we’ll stage one of it, and hope that I can start feeling good about some things and taking photos for you all again 🥰
Once I’m back home, I’ll be back into streaming while I kinda figure out some life stuff amongst my time back home. Gonna have a lot to do the next coming year. And honestly need to do some clothes shopping to get some cute fits for day to day and for posts here
The booty pics MAY have to be ones I send out to your DMs when I feel spicy and take any. We shall seeee! I’ll update you if there are any peachy things coming or sent out (I haven’t taken any! But been feeling myself a little bit more which may be good for yall 😅🤭)
Starting the week off with work work work 💪😮💨 The summer heat is intense and I’m so excited to start getting tan and being outside more. I’ve already somehow lost 15lbs or so (which isn’t noticeable rn) just from all the walks, meds, and time outside which is lovely 🥰 here’s to hoping I start feeling better and doing more for yall again soon
Next two weeks are gonna be me running around and working on 3 different projects upstate with Finn. It’s time to put life into gear and start making some serious changes I need for me. What are you guys getting into this month?
Streams will be returning this month! I really miss streaming and haven’t had a chance to work on anything stream related other than going through my clip archive and working on the jobs I have to do here. But! I commissioned a few new emotes I’ll be making live soon from Angel 🥰 you guys get to see them first. For now, streams will be a little random, but towards the end of the month we’ll get back into a little schedule or at least begin one!
🤔 I’m not quite sure how easy this can be, but what are some fun lines you guys would like to have of me saying if I were to record voice clips?
Things like good morning, counting down from 10, or anything in particular - pls let me know here!!!
Today was a cute little day, checking out a new dog park nearby, tried Popeyes for the first time, and just trying to enjoy some time outside of the house.
I think I’m feeling ready to be back to streaming again. I wish I had new shit for stream and all sorts, but I think I’ll just jump back into it and get back to a rhythm of streams, with the occasional week away for work IRL. What have you been up to? What’s been making you happy these last few months?
Also got a new “rain” shower head cause our current one broke, so VERY excited to shower with that bad boy
Spending Mother’s Day away from my bb Finn and spending time with my family 🩵 My little brothers home, got to see my siblings and spending time with momma, lots and lots of food 🤤
Still alive 🩵 I don’t think I can call myself a “content creator” anymore. I feel like I’ve barely been creating and need to just take some time to really discover who “Gray” really is. Please bear with me 🩵
Thank you to those who’ve been staying subscribed despite my inconsistency and lack of “content”. Thank you for your patience, your kindness, and your support. Please know that there is not a current schedule for content or anything planned. But I’m hoping once I’m out of this funk, I can get into a schedule of sorts again and begin a new chapter of Gray 🩵
It’s been a really long time since I’ve taken a moment and sat down on the beach and just soaked up the sun. Did that for the first time since living by the beach in 7 years 😅 feels nice and I got to enjoy the sun and ocean sounds with my boys. Finn dipped his toes in but is too scared of the waves 😅
One day at a time. My heart feels so empty without Mac and I’ve been trying to just take one day at a time.
I started taking adhd medication which has helped me focus when I’m able to sit down and work but my days have been a lot of dog walks, dog sitting and traveling back and forth to my moms to work up that way (which apparently just had an earthquake - she’s fine but wowee for NJ quakes). I’ve been busy and haven’t even taken a day to put on makeup and feel “pretty”, just taking advantage of cold weather with sweaters and cozy clothing so I haven’t taken any selfies or pictures of myself really, but here’s some photos from a walk. I always find the beach to be so calming, I hope you enjoy them 🥰
I’m looking at may to be when I come back to streaming, but depending on a a part time job (in the vet field) I’m applying for, it could change the timeline but we shall see!
Mac’s ashes are home 😔❤️🩹 I’ve been trying to get myself to a point where I can donate his meds and things Finn can’t use to the shelter here, and I know I’ll fight every urge to adopt when I visit there. I just know I’m not ready, Mac is a huge part of my heart and it’s too broken to open it up for another sweet soul. Plus Finn is taking all of my attention for now. Hoping to get a couple of items made with Mac’s ashes so I can carry him with me on every walk, every adventure I go on. The necklace in the second picture I got for loved ones who may want it.
Grief has taken the best of me this month, trying to get through the emotions, past the numbness and sobbing randomly throughout the day. I’ll be ok. Losing your best friend of 13 years, your child, and love, it’s hard. I wish no one ever had to feel this way.
Content here will be updates periodically for now. Once my body and mind sync up and feel ok, I’ll think about more content here. But for now my focus is: get through each day, finish this inventory job for good, and potentially apply for a local job working with animals.
I got tons of cute pics of Finn and one of my favorite places (the beach) to share here too, it may be a good bit of that for now. I haven’t been getting ready each day, only once in the last month have I put on makeup and felt “presentable”.
Also thank you for those who take the time to read posts and updates. I feel like there’s a lot of people here for *specific* content, but y'all know that’s not my thing so thank you for being here and caring to hear updates.
