Hey. I talk a lot about having trust in the process... in th..
Added 2021-05-06 22:10:31 +0000 UTCHey. I talk a lot about having trust in the process... in the universe. I really do try to embody a life built on acceptance, trust, fearlessness, empowerment, and growth. But I'm human (well, kinda ha), and I absolutely have waves of overwhelm, fear, and negative self-talk. This process of uprooting my life is destabilizing. That is true. But does that have to come with all the negative (and societally determined) connotations? Do I have to inherit that energy, just because I'm transitioning into a lot of unknowns? A lot of people in my life don't understand my path and that's okay. Letting go of the need to be understood has been a challenge. Especially for those of us who feel very 'separate' (I'm betting many of you too felt like the black sheep of your family... or maybe you have a homesick feeling that you can't quite place or resolve). And with that - I've been feeling into some what ifs... Today's is: what if life isn't about being 'understood' - of course it feels really *good* when that happens. It feels good to be surrounded by a community (big or small) that 'gets' you. But what if we go a step further... What if we release the need for validation, to be 'known'... What if we are simply here to witness and be witnessed? Now I'm not saying it's either or. And obviously community is important. But how often are we hiding ourselves -- curating the easily digestible parts, the pretty stuff, the 'acceptable' parts -- and stowing the rest away. You want people to know you and love you? Stop hiding in your own shadow. Anyway... many of you said you'd be interested in more journal entries, so that's what's on my mind and heart today. Unfiltered. Also... I *really* miss my dog.
