It has been an insane day. I woke up with an emotional hang..
Added 2021-05-10 22:32:27 +0000 UTCIt has been an insane day. I woke up with an emotional hangover, to start. Like ugh, *that feeling* when you share something vulnerable and you wanna go back and eat your words because of systemic *and* personal ingrained behavioral patterns that have formed neural pathways in your brain that make you believe things like: you are too much no one will believe you you have overshared this is not the space you can't speak like that you will be rejected But honestly - that's not even why it's been a wild day. I did, however, want to share this because... Well, people tell me 'oh you're so brave' or 'I wish I had support like you' Y'all -- None of this is easy. Sharing my thoughts on spiritualism and deeply personal aspects of my life is not easy. There's also layers and layers that I keep sacred, and always will. And while sharing my naked body is actually easier than sharing some of these other personal aspects -- well, that's not always easy either. But these things do get easier with time. So if you're feeling into something and believe 'oh, well that's gonna be hard, so I can't do that thing...' Of course it's hard. No matter what it is - if it's asking you to step up, to grow, to change, to heal, to shed... If it's an unhappy relationship, shitty job, or you just feel stagnant. Of course it's hard. Change is hard. And it's a daily choice. And guess what... it's no one's choice but yours.
