Mental Health 🧠 My mental health was a big reason for me ma..

Mental Health 🧠 My mental health was a big reason for me making an Only Fans. I’ve suffered from anxiety and depression my whole life. The anxiety has been a constant, but the depression comes and goes. It hasn’t been easy, but I’ve made it work; then the pandemic came. When I think of my life right before COVID, things were good and I was fairly happy. I cut ties with certain people who didn’t have my best interest at mind and I had a pretty good job that took me to some exciting places. My anxiety was there, but it was do-able. I felt like I was on the verge of something good- so of course, the world decided to take a dump. I think what did me in was a combination of the uncertainty, losing my job, and a toxic (roommate) living situation during quarantine. Being inside the house for all of those months did not sit well with me, especially not being able to socialize. Gives you a lot of time to think. Sometimes you think you’re no longer affected by certain past things in life; but when you have all of the time in the world to think- you might find out that it isn’t the case after all. When things started to open up again, I realized that being around people again was making me feel over stimulated- I felt like I had developed agoraphobia. My anxiety was at an all time high. I would get a panic attack while doing the simplest things like going to the grocery store. I’ve had a few jobs these past couple of years, but ended up getting fired from all of them because of my anxiety. My boss/coworkers at all of these jobs were very nice, actually. They knew what I was going through and really worked with me/helped me out, but at the end of the day, business is business and it was becoming a burden for them. I get it, I take full accountability for my situation and I’m grateful for them for being so kind. Never been one for medication, but it seemed like I had no choice. Part of me thought that it would be the solution to my problem, but it really is just a bandaid on a wound; it definitely helps, but it’s not a fix-all. I worked for my dads construction company afterwards because, well, he’s my dad and knows what I am going through. He doesn’t fully understand it, but he knows it’s a real problem and allows me to work around it. The only thing is; it’s not easy to work with parents (at least in my situation). My dad is extremely cheap and expects meticulous work. He does not pay a live-able wage. In a way, I feel like he knows that with my current situation, I really don’t have much of a choice- so he takes advantage of that to an extent. I don’t appreciate that, especially from my dad, so I’ve been exploring other options. That’s what has led me here, in a way. At the moment, I am speaking with a therapist to really get to the root of my anxiety, but it’s hard to get a good therapist. For the time being, I think it would be best if I worked remotely, so I’m hoping this site works out. I really am writing from the heart, and to be honest, it feels really good to write these things out. I’ve never really done so before and it’s rather therapeutic, but if you don’t want to hear this type of stuff, please let me know. I won’t be offended :) This isn’t a sob story or some type of sympathy campaign so that people can feel bad for me and subscribe; I prefer not to wallow in self pity. I love my life very much and I have so much to be grateful for. I just feel like a lot of people are going through similar situations and I don’t want people to feel like they are alone. I am here for you 24/7. If life feels like too much and you need someone to talk to, don’t hesitate. I am a good listener and I come from a place of understanding. Mental health is important. You matter. You are important -and if I could help in any way, it would be my honor💜